What happens when the spirit desires to speak out?

Have you felt the rhythm in your chest, a pulse, a pressing in your solar plexus to speak something out? What happens when we feel this, but we do not have words, clear words to say? It is just a pulse, a pulse desiring to communicate something. What is it? Our logical minds may be able to overcome the pulse by knowing that there is not something clear to say. It reasons, “if I do not know what the pulse wants to say, how do I know it is worth taking the time to write it down, after all, I don’t know what to write. My time would be much better doing something for which I know there will be a result, or a certain satisfaction or experience that will occupy me. Writing without knowing what I’m writing, what’s the value in that? How can I be certain?

Experiment, Spirit Hack # 1

Ask the pulse what it is feeling. Don’t ask what it wants to say. Speech is a symbolized verbalized conceptual communication that seeks to give meaning, purpose, or action to feeling. What happens when I ask the pulse– what are you pulsing about?


There is something I want to do. Some place I want to be. I want to be engaged. I want to be engaging.

Don’t fill in words about why not or how– spirit doesn’t communicate this way, doesn’t engage in the strategic logic of if-then factors. It is. It becomes true to itself by being itself which is its desired resonant frequency and all things shift around the resonant frequency.


I want to engage. I want to communicate. I love communicating. I want to engage with people. I want to be working with them. I want to be discovering how we work together. I want to be asking questions with people about consciousness. About true desires. About how life works. Life hacks. But not Life hacks like Tim Ferriss. Life hacks like consciousness hacks. How do we hack consciousness? How do we hack into our spiritual purpose?

There is no spiritual PURPOSE. There is a spiritful engagement. There is a spiritful inquiry. There is spiritful wonder and immersion and discovery and.

What is pulse pulsing towards?

Sharing. Sharing this process. Sharing and being naked in sharing this process. Process of spirit. It does not make sense to logical mind at all, to share without something of clear value being shared. SHARE. Be seen. Be naked in this inquiry. You don’t have the answers. That’s the point. People are tired of so many answers. Be willing to ask questions. Don’t KNOW. Be in the question. The process. Be naked in it. So that others that might be in it too, that don’t feel comfortable being naked in it, not knowing, we can together share that we don’t know. Share the vulnerability of not having anything to say, of not knowing. Of following the pulse, just the pulse. Where does it lead? Let it go. Go. Write it down, even though it may not go anywhere, so that is one more story to share how spirit works. Not how mind works. Not how intellect works. Because perhaps intellect cannot transform the world it has created. Perhaps intellect is obsolete, and it is the age of spirit now– of an illogical compass, a compass that does not chart itself by way of a mapped route, for any route mapped has already been taken before– no, to get to spirit we must follow the spirit compass–the compass that just follows the pulse. No more than two steps ahead of where we know. How can we know that we got there? Because we will have arrived in our spirit and the pulse will not be pushing anymore. The pulse will spread out and know it is where it needs to be. It will have found its engagement point.

The compass of spirit has no map. We have no map nor destination to navigate to. We only need the compass, and the compass is the pulse, and the pulse tells us, we know: When we are on the path, when we need to move, when we have arrived.

We are getting back to spirit. It is a journey led by our excitement. Why would we go anywhere else but towards our excitement? Would we go to our security before we get to our excitement? “I will get to my security first, and then from there I will safely venture out into my excitement.”

Right! That never happens. Then are we willing to leave our security to follow our excitement? How does it work?

Keep sharing. Just keep sharing, because this journey is about consciousness, and you are not separate from anyone, so by sharing it, you are sharing it with yourself. You are bringing consciousness to yourself. You are making the process of spirit, of the journey, questions, you are making it part of life. Not something occult. Not something mysterious, but something like what I ate for breakfast today.

Yes yes? No No?


Just share. share every scrap of heart you have. Let others determine it value for them. It doesnt matter whether anyone cares. If someone who loves to sing sings in the woods, and no one else is around to hear it, does it make the world more beautiful?


About noah crowe

I was born without a name. Later my family named me Noah Crowe. Crowe is my father's last name. I am an artist. Rather, I am a human being, seeking to know what I am. I am writing this blog to document my quest to know who I am in this world for my unborn son (and/or daughter). My father never passed on his journey to me, and I believe that it is story and ritual that informs our world; the worlds we live in, internally and externally. This is my way of giving myself, and my potential son, a window into this process of finding spiritual meaning and service in a culture that I find to lack the foundation of integration between the spiritual, the communal, and the societal.
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