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What if all this is enough? The process. The process of process. Being in process. That experiencing the process and all the moments of the process is the result. being in time. The divinity of being in time. of being in process. The duty of the human, the human angel is the angel without wings– is the angel that is here to discover and be present with process– with time–time between intention and manifestation. Bring consciousness to the space between–to the distance between the manifest. Every electron is as far away from every other part of the atom as our planets are to each other in our solar system. Nothing is ever touching. What if we are the experience of the unmanifest– us, our lives– our consciousness is to be in time slowed down from the speed of light– slowed down from instantaneousness, we are the distance between the word and the moment of creation. We are the act of creation. What if we release- every thought, every question and doubt and vessel maintaining action to the next moment– the moment of intersection of objects? The moment of intersection when everything exchanges and changes its course and changes the nature of its changing courseness upon all other objects it interacts with throughout the rest of time.

Consciousness is to release all the thinking and thioughtstreams inbetween each manifest moment of interaction. To surrender divinely our serenity to space– the space of manifestation in between word and result. The same way that our autonomic nervous system became conscious to the beating heart, so that it beats throughout the course of a lofe, so our evolutionary step is to incorporate the journey of the process in between manifestation autonomic, but to be present to it–aware, conscious of that space that is time– the space between moments– while in an object, in matter that is decaying, that appears to have  a life span- for manifestation to become conscious of itself, of manifestation, it must be a manifestation experiencing both the process of manifestation and of decay  into formlessness that renews the matter of the stream of manifestation for itself. Divinity is to be aware and alive within the surrender of all the moments in between intention and manifestation– to do the work of manifestation without thought– we are the manifestation of the universe– catalyst for manifestation, and to be able to be present with the process without escaping the process, to FEEL all of the process of intent to object, object which is matter shaped by intent, by forces, by will.

We are the unmanifest, the space in between the manifest, experiencing TIME. Our thoughtstream is a moment of interaction identifying its coordinates with other coordinates of interaction/ intersection of objects with force/ velocity seeking to be an object itself. It is the string threading through and having an experience of moments of manifestations of experience. But the moments of synergy, synthesis, catalyst, impact, are what are real. They have ripples with other matter–this pertitude(ability to maintain) of memory is not pertinent, of consciousness maintaining hold of an experience and carrying it over into the next– of matter that retains the history of its impacts and transformations– for the sake of– matter becoming conscious of its own journey through manifestations–its own journey through interactions with other forces and objects–it is matter, becoming conscious of itself–so that it can intend, not by reaction, not by base physics, but can alter its own course for its own sake and for the sake of choice of interaction– intentional matter. Our experience of self is our experience of a trapped waveform seeking to draw a line through a series of experiences and make them connected. But they are not, need not be. Become the beating heart– release. Surrender the constant speculation of thought and experience the process of manifestation as an observer– all the actions, there are no choices. except to choose against it, those that seek to escape the moment, the process, the experience of time, the experience of themselves as space.


About noah crowe

I was born without a name. Later my family named me Noah Crowe. Crowe is my father's last name. I am an artist. Rather, I am a human being, seeking to know what I am. I am writing this blog to document my quest to know who I am in this world for my unborn son (and/or daughter). My father never passed on his journey to me, and I believe that it is story and ritual that informs our world; the worlds we live in, internally and externally. This is my way of giving myself, and my potential son, a window into this process of finding spiritual meaning and service in a culture that I find to lack the foundation of integration between the spiritual, the communal, and the societal.
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