Being the hollow bone

I relinquish my self awareness, my reserve, and my desire. I go to the marriot. I respond to johanns call and I follow my gut. I keep following it. I listen. I respond. I call farion to pick up the fountain and we talk about spiritual film, 127 hours, and the doc. That has been on my shelf, banging against my spirit for too long. But I transgressed the first safety in docs. I got involved. I did not just document the story, I was an integral part in it- I became one of the protagonists, I put my intention into the story, into that there should or would be a story to tell.
Farion and I talk about social acknowledgment and sticky teachers; those people that need to be acknowledged, that need the power of eyes and voice turned to them in gratitude. And then there’s kent and farion. And they may enjoy, and it may hurt to not get it. But they don’t NEED it. They are in service. And their energy with their adepts is Clean.
Then on to elevate. Harmony and then elevate. And it is my tribe. I just show up and be present. Nothing to present. Nothing to prove. These are good people and we are all doing the work to bring consciousness to our fields. Another jolt for my doc. Its time, and I know now just the way to do it, to give it the context I have needed all along- and it has to do with being congrous. A doc about vision fast will naturally follow the process of vf, the film itself, its production, its shooting, its composing, will need to be the process of vf to have integrity as a film, as an entity.
A story must be told to the elders, to be mirrored, before it is performed on earth for the people to see.
I never told the story. The story of the film. So how could I edit it?
I will invite a circle of elders to hear the story, to bear witness, and from this first giving, its second giving as film will have a container, and a direction.
This is a part of the making of art, of becoming an artist- to understand the dynamics and the mechanics of the process- not necessarily to make the process faster (it maybe needed two years anyway) but to remove the judgement and guilt that comes from challenging and misunderstanding and butting up against the process.


About noah crowe

I was born without a name. Later my family named me Noah Crowe. Crowe is my father's last name. I am an artist. Rather, I am a human being, seeking to know what I am. I am writing this blog to document my quest to know who I am in this world for my unborn son (and/or daughter). My father never passed on his journey to me, and I believe that it is story and ritual that informs our world; the worlds we live in, internally and externally. This is my way of giving myself, and my potential son, a window into this process of finding spiritual meaning and service in a culture that I find to lack the foundation of integration between the spiritual, the communal, and the societal.
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