Monthly Archives: October 2010

To fight for myself. I just don’t believe that my comfort or my pleasure, or my ego or my desire, or my wishes and visions are possible enough that it is worth the effort to fight for them, (to fight … Continue reading →

The wet streets. The imperative clouds. It is not a cloud. One continuous block of grey. No discernment. No border our boundary. Just grey. And a slippery cold after all the warm faces at Ojai Day. I always run away. … Continue reading →

And hamlet got it wrong. New Liberty at the goodbar, they got it. Are you going to be a rockstar, or not? Everything else are just validations of the latter.

I don’t feel like poisoning myself anymore. It doesn’t stimulate my mood or my personality, though it might make me more social, I don’t want to rely on something like that for the duration of my life, so why continue … Continue reading →

Whoare we, who am I, but, How can I bring value to this situation? How can I heighten this experience? How can I lighten, en lighten, fill with light this experience, our experience, my experience.

With any of this, questions, doubt, waiting for the right moment, another moment, moment. Why wait for love? I love lucy. There is love with lucy. There is not one but many, the only question is how long will we … Continue reading →

What do we want?

Driving leaving a message for kent, I call him “buddy”. Why? Is everything casual and informal? Am I a low stakes guy? Is everything okay catch as catch can, unintentional? I want to honor others. I want to honor the … Continue reading →

Its not that I lack passion. The fire in my stomach keeps me up at night. I wake with visions of other worlds. I want to bring these home. Home to earth, to our senses. I want to feel them, … Continue reading →